We spoke last night. You were at Mason's baseball game. Earlier, you went to the library to pick up Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. You read about ten pages. By the time you read this you will have finished the book.
If you will remember, I recommended this book when I was in Salt Lake City, sitting outside of a brewery where I had just received a Joey Lawrence (good thing you have youtube) placard marking my number in line to get the pizza I ordered. I was attending Outdoor Retailer where I ended up getting my job with DrinkTanks. You were watching the opening ceremonies for the Olympics in Rio. They were running a program about the fragile nature of our world's environment. You said it made you sad and afraid. I told you that we can do the best to protect and conserve this world and our conscience can be clean.
Ultimately, nature is so very powerful that she can do anything she wants in a minute. Three hundred million years ago the place where you are sitting was a shallow ocean. There were no humans to even make this happen. There have been times where either the earth was covered in ice or had no ice at all. I hope those words made you feel better.
The reason I told you to read Hitchhiker's is that in the encyclopedia that covers everything in the galaxy, Encyclopedia Galactica which is wordplay for Encyclopedia Brittanica (good thing you have Google) the entry for earth and all that it is in relation to all that there is, "harmless". That is it, harmless. The earth is harmless. It was destroyed to make an offramp for a galactic highway.
Sometimes, we think we can change the universe but mostly, if we enjoy our lives and help others, the world will be amazing. If you feel oppressed then move. The history of freedom is escaping tyrants and restrictions. Always, know there is a place to go whether it is in your mind or a place you can reach with wheels, a boat or your feet. The deepest drive in humanity is to find a place that gives us freedom. Alight to this place always.
I moved West when I decided that I wanted to prepare a place for you here. You being here is my goal and I will do everything I can to make this happen. You will love it here. I started my journey with the stark realization that I could lose it all. Looking back at it, I really had nothing but you, your sister and brother. I would have definitely lost you there in Arkansas because I had no force to move forward. I felt a wretchedness that I pray for you to never feel, despair. It is something that can be escaped and managed and averted.
My journey started when I left Little Rock. I met a person who connected me back to my friend, Bennet. I will tell you about him later. He died of cancer when he was thirty. I drove back to where I grew up, Rogers. If you can, go to Rogers and you can see my name on a sign outside the track at the high school football field. I saw a few friends and the fading world of my youth that seemed to be unraveling like a ragged piece of cloth on which I was standing. The move West was to outrun the crumbling ground underneath me and the abyss that loomed if I didn't go. Then, I drove to Nebraska and stayed with your Omi and Bobpa. I stayed for three days and then truly left for the West at five in the evening that last night. I drove through the night until I saw the mountains through a summer storm full of lightning bolts and winds and run.
When I was driving through the night in the dark plains of western Nebraska this song jumped onto the radio. These words struck me:
You can drive all night
looking for the answers
in the pouring rain
wanna find piece of mind
looking for the answers
I am convinced that my journey required more than wheels and fuel and a physical body. It demanded everything I have to arrive here with contentment and freedom. Never delay this essential journey. If your feet long to run make sure you let them move, with no excuses, with no quarter, to the place you need to be.
With All The Love I Know Exists,